Spine out of control

..and I do not mean the moral one. Still no news, no hugs, no more I love yous. This is still supposed to be the best year in a while they told me ( and I told myself). I am angry, sad, annoyed and my spine just got worse, meaning I am suffering like hell. Is this some kind of punishment for going two-pronged?!

...I need a moment, otherwise they'll bring me under control.

Ihr seid dumm ihr zwei, ja ALLE BEIDE!